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Soo Jin

Date: 2006-06-20 00:09
Subject: being stupid
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I am feelinglonelylonely
Listening toAkon - Lonely
At the cusp of my impending final day of my uni life, I am beset by a strange longing, an odd thought..
I want a hug..
or rather, I want to hug someone.. and thing is, I don't know if it's a particular person or just anyone will do..

I want to feel the warm fuzzy feeling u get when you hug someone after you miss them terribly.. It's not about desire or anything like that.. it's about feeling a connection.. I'm a very physical person.. I think that might stem from insecurities or.. whatever psychologist can come up to give reason for us being who we are. I manifest my friendship, my affection (platonic and otherwise) and feelings through the sense of touch.. It makes me feel like things are real, it's not just a figment of my hyperactive imagination, it's real and i'm actually around real people and talking to real people..

I once commented to a friend that we are all driven by the fear of being lonely.. maybe that's my prime motivation rather than the rest of the world.
I feel lonely sometimes.. even though I have made many new friends.. who hopefully enjoy my company.. heh.. and yeah..
but the world is just perhaps not meant to be spent alone...

I've always exhibited more obvious signs of fluctuating moods when i've been single.. not sure why.. maybe a feeling of comfort, contentment may play a part in that.

I think I'm just tired.. and reading too much and brain just wanna let go and run away with thoughts..
but if it's true..
I might just end up making a bad decision sometime soon..

who knows eh?
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User: (Anonymous)
Date: 2006-06-19 17:47 (UTC)
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aiya. if you know it's gonna be a bad decision, then don't make it!!! d-uh....

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User: dcsjin
Date: 2006-06-19 20:56 (UTC)
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even though it may BE the wrong decision.. humans sometimes just still do it anyway.. =)

we are paradoxical creatures..
we're stupid things..
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User: (Anonymous)
Date: 2006-06-21 12:03 (UTC)
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5 bucks on STUPID

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User: dcsjin
Date: 2006-06-21 17:00 (UTC)
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shoo shoo
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