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Soo Jin

Date: 2005-07-07 01:06
Subject: Friday is in 24 hours time..
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I am feelingpensivepensive
sometimes it seems like i'm doing something to deserve everything that comes my way..
my results is a direct result of me not.. performing at 100%
does it appear like i suffer that lack when it comes to relationships as well?
does it seem like i don't give my all? or do i actually give my all but it doesn't come across that way.. perhaps it's a dysfunction of my ability to emote to people..
i don't know

I was talking to my aunt today .. and she brought up the matter of X, all of them are under the impression that it was me who did the ditching.. =) and.. apparently according to her, X spoke to my sister a few weeks before the exams began and said I didn't call her.. that got me confused.. call her for?
girls like their egos stroked isit? I mean if it's constantly then it gets pretty lame after a while... so with nothing to go on from she claimed I didn't call her.. what does that have to do with anything?
She chose to leave me, she chose him.. it's not like i didn't ask her.. over and over.. only to arrive at the same answer. and then I ceased contact because, there can not be anything between us right now.. or maybe even in the future, i don't know but I cannot stand the idea of backstabbers being anywhere remotely on the level I call friends.
My aunt mentioned that my grandma asked about her a few times like why hasn't she seen X in such a long time, no one replied.. =) and my aunt said maybe she's just trying to make me jealous.. is that typical of what females tend to do? try to make their loved ones jealous? and if so.. to what end?
what purpose does it serve?

I did manage to fix one problem today..
but.. another one i haven't been able to..
just blew up twice without warning or reason..

of being sorry when the reason for it isn't apparent.
of stupid pride.
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User: ulwen
Date: 2005-07-07 08:12 (UTC)
Subject: Jealous
Question: Why try to make you jealous?
Answer: Seeking attention or confirmation you still love them (sillies), teasing (they'll laugh while doing this) or just being an evil bitch (quite possibly laugh here too).

Why they can't just accept the fact you love them is beyond me, but I guess it's one of those growing up things they need to do.
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User: dcsjin
Date: 2005-07-07 10:14 (UTC)
Subject: Re: Jealous
i dunno.. =)
seriously.. i don't know
i didn't know what to make of it when i heard of it.
i didn't understand why my aunt suggested even.
oh well..
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